Chapter 56: About To Crack

*Next morning*

Joniesha was walking on the beach alone, she had on,

Lost In The Island (for Satinee) by stylish_princess featuring Paul Smith

She lowered the hat lower over her eyes, the sun was extremely bright today. She had a lot floating around in her mind. She couldn't sleep last night, she had woke up barely containing a scream. The nightmares she had were unbearable, and what made it worst was the fact that the nightmares were real. She had done all the evil things she dreamed about. She went around smiling, but couldn't stop the guilt of killing so many people. Yea she could rebuild a city, but she couldn't bring lives back. She turned her head to her left, when she heard footsteps. Vann had caught up to her, she sighed. She didn't deserve him, especially from all the sins she had committed.

"Hey, beautiful." Vann said, crushing her to his body.

"Hey." Joniesha said, before pulling herself gently out of his reach. Vann frowned, and gazed into her eyes. Joniesha glanced away, and started to walk again.

"What is it?" Vann asked. Joniesha was silent as she continued to walk. Vann grabbed her arm, and spun her around. "What is it, Jonie?"

"I couldn't sleep last night."

Vann nodded. "Nightmares." It was more of a statement than a question, but Joniesha nodded anyway.

"You know you didn't do this intentionally right? It was out of control. I know you Joniesha, you was gonna force me to kill you to keep you from turning into the monster Troy forced you to become. You are a beautiful person, with a beautiful heart. I know the nightmares won't slow for a good minute, but I want you to stop blaming yourself. I will be here to get you through all of this."

Joniesha sighed. "I don't deserve you...you know?"

Vann rolled his eyes. "You were made for me, how can you not deserve me?"

Joniesha smiled.

Vann glanced over Joniesha's body. "You look beautiful."

Joniesha rolled her eyes. "Well duh nigga. When am I not?"

Vann laughed, and took her hand, as they continued walking down the beach.

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Brittbrat and Sabrina were in the computer room. They were applying for Hawaii Pacific University, they were the first to do so. Sabrina glanced over at Brittbrat. she put her hand over her eyes.

"Britt, your dress is blinding me again."

Brittbrat laughed, and glanced down at her outfit.

island by fernanda coleto vacation newyear featuring DKNY bags

"Bitch, Imma need for you to respect my glamorousness thanks." She flipped her hair over her shoulder. "I'm going out with Trey when I'm done, he likes when I wear the shiny dresses."

Sabrina laughed. "I'm going on a date with Dre after this as well. He really likes me in pink and black."

"Pathetic."

Sabrina and Brittbrat turned around, and saw Natasha standing there. She had on:

Nis,Serbia,daily casual style... by Katjuncica featuring Diesel

"What's pathetic?" Sabrina asked.

"You guys. Dressing according to what your men like. Me, myself, personally will never let a nigga control anything I wear."

Brittbrat shook her head. "It's not really a control thing. We do it to make them happy, they like to see it. So we do it, and they pay us back double later. owwwwwww!"

Sabrina smiled. Natasha rolled her eyes, and hopped on a computer.

"So..what you do after we left yesterday?" Britt asked.

Natasha kept her eyes on her screen. "Nothing special."

"Brandon stayed behind as well didn't he?" Sabrina asked.

"Yep." Natasha said, nonchalantly, as the computer loaded up.

"And ya'll didn't do anything?" Brittbrat asked.

Natasha frowned at her screen. "Why? What's with all the questions?"

"Well, I went to the jacuzzi area last night, and saw that water had been recently cleaned up out there. I mean the jacuzzi water isn't even that high. So how did it pour over like that, I mean neither you or Brandon are fat asses soooo..." Brittbrat trailed off, staring at Natasha with a smile on her face. Sabrina was smiling at her computer screen, as she continued to type.

Natasha felt him, rather than heard Brandon enter the computer room. She rolled her eyes at herself. How could you feel when a nigga enter a room, what kind of punk ass shit was that. She needed to get that together.

"Hello ladies." Brandon said. Brittbrat and Sabrina turned around.

"Heyyyyyyyyyy." They both said, at the same time.

Brandon glanced over at Natasha, who had went on the HPU site as well. She tried her best to ignore his presence. Brittbrat and Sabrina felt the tension in the room, and glanced at each other, they quickly submitted their applications. They both stood up.

"Well, we'll catch ya'll later." Sabrina said, as the left the computer room. Brandon shut the door, and locked it. Natasha closed her eyes breifly. She'd been avoiding his ass all day, and then his happy ass finds her. What did he want from her?!

"You've been avoiding me all day Natasha." Brandon said, as he made his way over to her. Natasha said nothing, maybe if she said nothing, he'd leave her the fuck alone.

She felt her stomach flutter when he stood directly behind her. He had his hands on the back of the chair she sat in. Natasha's only outside reaction was a blink of her eyes, but her insides were calling his name. Her body been yearning for his ass every since she left that damn jacuzzi.

"So I get the silent treatment too huh?" Brandon said, lowering him into the seat beside Natasha, his seat rolled a little as he sat down, but he rolled it back to her. He rolled closer than she wanted him to get to him. Natasha felt his eyes on her face, as she continued to type.

Brandon continued to watch her, saying nothing else.After 10 minutes, Natasha sighed, and rolled her seat away from Brandon, but twisted in his direction.

"Ok.. What?!" Natasha yelled, throwing her hands in the air. "What do you want from me Brandon?"

Brandon raised an eyebrow. "Well good to finally get an emotion out of you. I don't understand why you're so angry at me."

Natasha glared her eyes, then stood up, she started pacing. "Maybe it's the fact that you keep throwing the L word out there like you say that shit everyday...and saying it to me at that...you don't know me enough to love me."

"I don't use love all the time, this is my first time falling in love actually, and two I do know you enough...I know that my heart, mind, body, and soul yearns for you day and night. I've been around plenty women trust me, and these feelings never came forth."

Natasha stared at him. "You don't know my past, I'm not made for love...relationships...happy go lucky weddings...popping out cute little monsters, and living in lil blue houses with a white picket fence. I'm not the one for you."

Brandon stood up. "Tell my heart that." he said softly. Natasha stopped pacing. She was standing by a wall, she leaned against it, and closed her eyes. She sighed, when she felt Brandon kiss her eyelids. "Explain it to me please." He whispered, as his warm breath brushed her face.

Natasha opened her eyes, and Brandon was right there. She sighed. "I thought I knew love once...we dated for four years, he proposed to me, at our high school prom. Right before I came to S.U. we had the wedding....or so I thought. He left me at the altar for 30 minutes..before I went looking for him. I found him in limo, fucking my sister. I damn near killed them both when I hopped in that limo. Before this I was sweet...kind...weak and shit. That incident created who you see in front of me. I tried to date after him, but it never works...I can't deal with that again."

Brandon stared into Natasha's eyes. "I'm sorry."

Natasha glanced away from him. "Don't be. I'm over it. I learned from it."

"So you will never let me in then?"

Natasha kept her eyes on the other side of the room. "No."

Natasha felt Brandon's lips brush her ear, she barely contained a shiver. "I don't believe that. I believe I'm already slithering into your heart...i think the jets won you over."

Natasha blushed. "Fuck!"

Brandon laughed, and brushed her cheek with his. "I love when you blush, and just know I'm not gonna give up on you. I fight for what I want, and I want you."

He kissed her lips softly. "You'll be mine soon enough." Then he moved away from her, and opened the door. Sabrina and Brittbrat fell in. Natasha's eyes narrowed.

"Don't judge us. You never tell us shit anymore..at least when it has to do with Brandon." Sabrina said.

Brandon smiled, and walked past them with a wink. Brittbrat turned towards Natasha.

"You're fighting this shit extra hard, Tash. Brandon is a good man, just let him in."

Natasha sighed. "Just leave me alone for the day okay...I need to think." Natasha slowly walked out the room."

"Hard bitch bout to crack." Brittbrat said.

"Indeed." Sabrina said.